9. --days

so i pretty much figured out what i have to do, and what i thought was right, was wrong. so oh well, that's okay.

i finish my freshman year in 9 days. i'm not really feeling nostalgic, or reflective. i'm just glad to be done with the emotionally draining year that i had. i'm trying to think back to my freshman year of high school, if it was this bad. i don't think it was but i do remember each year of hs getting better and better. so i look forward to improving my life in september.

until then, i have the summer to get through. internship, friends, etc. laynie is coming the day of my last final and i'm looking forward to that.

but let's just get through the last 9 days before anything.

8.

i'm hoping that if i pretend, i can fool others, and maybe myself. but it might just lead to more bad than good. and i'm not sure if i actually have the energy for that.

7. girl talkkk

so yesterday i went to see girl talk, which was a free event for ucla students put on by CEC. let's just say CEC was very successful...and that this concert was a shitshow. but i would expect no less when girl talk is playing for free.

i ended up getting right up in front, about 5 feet away from the stage. it was fairly comfortable while we were standing there waiting, but as soon as rye rye (1/2 of opening bands) came on, comfort was out the window as people smashed up against one another and drunk sorority girls used me as their launch pad so that they could jump and scream as high as they could.

but back to the concert. rye rye. this little little woman had purple hair and jammed and danced like she was in a missy elliott video. check out her myspace. it's kind of hilarious. when she came on stage i could NOT stop laughing as she shook her hips and jumped from side to side.

she also had this female DJ who was FIERCE. she looked like a cross between rihanna and that bitch eva from america's next top model. i really want to find a picture of her, because before rye rye came out i was down with this girl.

after rye rye was some rapper, i don't remember his name but it's okay. he sounded like every other shitty rapper. he made references to "ring around the rosey" but had a pocket full of "dough." it was just the same beats and songs about "who is hotter."

girl talk was fun. although i kind of felt like i was at a rave, and i definitely wouldn't see him again in concert, i did have a good time. at one point i had to leave from being so close because everybody was so sweaty. i joined my friends andrew and milo, who were in the back. it was so much more fun because i actually had space to BREATHE. after the concert (which ended at 11), i was incredibly dehydrated and i had to jump in the shower thanks to everybody's sweat. all in all, good night.

6. going

friday night was spent with gigi and sarah, we went to chipotle and stared at the sad sacks eating there, we ran into julia too. so she sat with us and it was really nice to reminisce on the complete ridiculousness that was high school. then me and gigi and sarah went back to gigi's house to talk some more, it all felt good and right.
saturday i went shopping and scored at the nordstrom sale, but my mom isn't letting me bring my new clothes back to my dorm (understandably so, i have so much shit that i need to bring home).
and that's about the only things that were remarkable about my weekend, or at least worth looking back at.
i have 2 more weeks to get through and i keep realizing that 2 weeks until i'm done=2 weeks until laynie comes to visit. can't wait for that, we are going to have such a great time. taura left for berlin early this morning and i'm already missing her.
the amount of shit that i need to do in the next week, just to PREPARE to begin studying for finals is kind of ridiculous. but i'm ready to face it and get it all over with.

5. almost thereeee

so this week has been really long and draining, not really what i expected. i'm hoping that this weekend will pay off for it though, i have some pretty good plans:

friday: class until 12, then hiking, then seeing gigi and sarah at night

saturday: shopping at nordstrom with mom (sale!), stopping at american rag (toms?), watching that 50s movie for class

sunday: jazz-reggae fest

monday: chill.

let's hope all that works out, and that i end up having a good time. now, i have to go get dinner and make it to the CEC office by 6. pharrell is speaking tonight, that should be pretty interesting. i have no idea what he could possibly talk about.

4. finallyyyyy

so this weekend was all work and no play. or maybe a little play. but sitting at my dining room table for hours while i killed myself over this essay for art history that was on baudelaire and modernity and painters and mary cassatt and auguste renoir was not tight. but ANYWAYS. i'm finally done and i don't LOVE the essay but i'll get a B or better.

last night i walked over to gigi's house and we shared a couple bottles of wine between the two of us and had a really nice talk. we discussed everything that had happened in our lives since we last saw each other (in march) and it was really refreshing to be with her. she's known me since 10th grade and that's a lot more than what i can say for everyone else that i trust at the moment. so hearing her opinion on my life just seems to be a reflection of who i was and how i have evolved. and so it gave me a really fresh perspective.

i got a 91% on my astronomy midterm and i did not do all that studying. needless to say i am very relieved and i reallyyy wish that i could minor in astrophysics. sadly that isn't offered. and to make matters worse i saw star trek today (which was AWESOME) and i was like, well maybe i could minor in just physics? but THAT isn't offered either. so i'll just stick with math.

i emailed the woman today about the internship (which i was supposed to hear about on saturday) and she said she would call me tomorrow. sooo now i have to wait until tomorrow afternoon. but i can take just one more day.

bedtime? yes.

3. carnivalz

so of course when my dad wanted to drag me to the hancock park carnival today (my elementary school) i threw a pretty good bitch fit. but there ended being a henna booth and so OF COURSE i had to stand in line for an hour to pay 5 tickets for one (1 ticket=1 dollar=ripoff). i saw all these people walking around with crazy elaborate designs and i just couldn't resist.

so i get in line and i'm behind a couple of 12 year old girls that are kind of cute and whatever. and then we are cut by some 6th grade bitches who thought they were so cute with their "class of 2008" hancock park shirts. but whatever, that wasn't even the worst of it. so THEN these janky bitches started to hang out kind of next to me and the cute 12 year olds, and eventually decide they are gonna cut ME. and i would totally have said something had i wanted to get beaten up. but they had like gross purple metallic streaks in their hair and words and drawings written in green sharpie all up their arms.

so anyways they ended up cutting me and being all like "yo let us get sum matching turtles on our arms" (which is SO GAY) and so i just waited for the next henna bitch to be available and i took my fucking place. they bitched and whined but like whatever i wanted my damn tat. and then when this OTHER mom tried to tell the girls to back the fuck up off their turtle shit i swear they were gonna jump the poor woman. AND she was hood. so just goes to show you how hard they were. so i finally got my henna (pictured) and scampered home happily. now i'm chilling. still waiting to hear about my astronomy midterm and my jewelry internship. i should also get started on this paper...it's due tuesday and i have nada. oh well!

2. getting too much and not enough done

i just got back from seeing "angels and demons" and i'm pretty sure that i had about 3 heart attacks during the whole movie. it was cool that i was able to identify most of the sculptures and paintings and churches they referenced, so props to professor black from winter quarter. also, i always find it really fascinating to learn about the history of religion and whatnot so i enjoyed it. it makes me want to watch the history channel or documentaries of some sort, or maybe read some books.

i really want to read more books this summer. i know i always say that and the fact of the matter is that i have a lot of shit going on this summer, but i hope that i can at least pick up something.

i guess i have a lot of standards for summer, and a lot of expectations for myself. i have a fear of actually writing them all down because then it will be all the more apparent that i won't get shit done. but whatever.

in other news, i'm waiting to hear about the results from my recent astronomy midterm. i'm also on pins and needles to see if i get that third internship at mannin jewelry. i really think that i could get a lot out of this job, and perhaps it could lead to something in the fall. i really liked the owner and the studio was just so cute. so hopefully i'll hear about both of those tomorrow.

1. restart.

recently i've come to love the lunch they serve at de neve. there's an entire sandwich bar, complete with loafs of bread, veggies, and different types of meat. personally, i don't get any bread, and i load up on veggies and tuna. today, i decided to go and sit by myself.

i usually haaaate eating alone but today i brought my book with me and i ended up having just as great a time (if not more so) than had i gone with friends. i was able to take my time, read, and just chill. i am definitely going to do that again.

anyways, i guess i've decided that i'm going to start writing in my blog once again...and to leave my livejournal. random friends from 7th grade still follow me and who knows if they actually still use it but i don't want to risk that shit. so blogspot it is. woohoo!

EDIT: genius-ing simon & garfunkle gives you a great genius playlist. just putting that out there..